Never Ending: Part 10

Some1: hal 7arakat ma tinfa3
Nouf: why dont you leave me alone?!!?
Some1: widy bas magdar! shasawi a7bich
Nouf: yuck! shtabi miny?
Some1: dam inich sa2altai abi wayid ashya2 abi t.hdeen 7amad w abeech itsaween ili abeeh w a5ir shay abeech it9eereen 7agi ;*
Nouf: inta shit5arbi6? sabi3 ilmosta7eelat
Some1: 5ala9 3ayal ta7amalai kil ili bi9eerlich 7ubi
Nouf: no wait 3a6ni waqt afakir
Some1: okk

What am i going to do this is not good! i cant leave 7amad thats impossiable! i dont wont to leave him i love him alot so i just cant leave him bas mabi anf'6i7! ya rab shasawi laish chithi i9eer feeni lama a7ib wa7id kilshay yi5trib laish? im so confused and im having to many emotions that are confusing me more and more:( i got a bbm from 7amad

7amad: shfeech ingalab wayhich w sra7tay 7ayati? ;*
Nouf: la mafeeny shay 7abeebi ;*
7amad: akeed?
Nouf: akeedain ;*
7amad: itha feeh shay tara tigdreen itgooleenli;*
Nouf: la t7ati itha feeh shay akked inta awal wa7id agoola;*
7amad: ok 7ayati akalmich ba3dain ;*
Nouf: ok ;*

We continued bbqing w after that we ate and i was still confused and i still dont know what to do! should i give up on us or play hard and make him shut anyway? lazim afakir w a5tar 3adil gabil la at7asaf w asawi ashya2 andam 3alaiha 6ool 3umri! ana a7ib 7amad wala a7iba bas ma agdar athil wiya wala agdar ahida bas lazim ahida lana mabi anf'6i7 w igooloon 3ani ashya2 mo zaina w igooloon 3ani bitch w they gudge me w ohma ma y3arfooni! a7iba min kil galbi bas magdar ana lazim ahida lazim! qarart agool 7ag that some1

Nouf: qarart i go with u im going to end kelshay with 7amad bas can i see him one last time?
Some1: dam ibtanheen kilshai ee bas fokeena mina
Nouf: okk

So i bbmed 7amad

Nouf: 7amad i need to see you ilyoom
7amad: ok 7ayati bas mita w wain?
Nouf: starbukks ilsa3a 4?
7amad: ok ;*

Im ending it all today i cant beleive it! there will be no more hamad and me no more those amazing convos just me all alone bieng a slave to som1 i dont know:( it was 4 already and i wore my  missoni jumpsuit:

I told '3alooy and my parents that i was going to get something from my couisns shalaih and they said it was ok but '3alooy 7anat tabi tyee bas i told her it was a guy cousin so shwaya ista7at w ig3dat! i told the driver to head to starbukks w lama wi9alt i got inside w shift 7amad ga3id bil corner alone ma36i ildoor thahra and thats when he broke my heart! ma yistahal ilkalam ili il7een bagoola ma yistahal ili il7een bi9eer i dont want to leave him bas i have to w mu bas i have to ila '3a9ban 3alai! that some1 really 8athni laish yabeeni asawy chithi laish yabi i5arib 7ayati lama kint mistansa laish ana shswaitla??!!